Money over matter?

This post today is not typical how-to, advice, etc. This is more of a rant I suppose.

I understand that many of my views can be very strong or opinionated. I understand that I could offend people but when a blog is supposed to be about you and your views that's what I'm going to use it for. I will apologize in advance if I do offend, that is not my intent. The intent of this post is to let off some steam. So recently (as in today) I was talking to one of my friends via chat. This person isn't who upsetted me. I was bothered by a more general idea. We got on the topic of a school we both attended and how it's ridiculous the pressure that, that school puts on the students on academics. I know that there is some idea that the pressure is good because college is like that. But, when you have to bring in massage therapists and puppies to de-stress the students that's going to far. The school we used to attend is on the top 50 high schools in the US. In this article it gives some quick points about the schools. So for our school aside for talking about outstanding achievements, API scores, so on and so forth it talked about how the average students family income is over $100,000 a year. With this I will start the main point of this post.

Since when has a school been known for it's students family income? Since when has that been a factor in anything? When I went to that high school there were many students (including me) who didn't even come close to that amount a year. When 15-18 year olds are walking around in huge name brands and designer everything there is a problem. I understand everyone wants to look good/professional. But Juicy couture and Louis Vuitton aren't the only brands out there who will make you look presentable. Target, Forever 21, Plato's closet, etc. Can make you look just as good for way cheaper. Something I've noticed about blogs online and youtubers is that it seems the only reason they have a blog or channel is because they want to show off their name brands. I don't care if you can afford Dior eye shadow or Chanel lipstick. If you can't apply it and use it properly then I don't know why you are wasting your time, my time, internet space and money. You shop at Brandy Melville? No one cares. One their clothes are not quality and two so does everyone else on the internet. So you are becoming a clone. Your parent or guardian bought you $200 Vera Wang pants? Well life is going to be tough for you sweetie. One day you will have to support yourself. One day you will have to decide what's more important, $500 jacket or rent? Plus many people I see on blogs and youtube use the exact same thing. Why are you even on the internet? You and 5 other people made the same review! It's okay not to buy commercial products. Plus those companies are cheap and use many harmful chemicals. Plus, you know, those cute little critters that are very common to be seen during spring, particularly around Easter? Yes, rabbits. They get tested on by L'oreal, Maybelline, etc. Commercial products. They get tested on with chemicals that would burn our skin. So they sure as hell hurt the rabbits. But that's not an issue...it's just an animal. (Sarcasm heavy applied) It really erks me when I see people going out, trying new brands are over looked because they can't afford the expensive stuff.

I'm not sorry I made this post. If you feel inclined to unsubscribe you are more than welcome to. I'm not going to be upset. It is your choice. This is completely my personal opinion from my own personal experiences in high school and even now in college.

Who am I? With pictures and words.

Something I realized is that I never put any info about myself on my blog. I'm basically a faceless, nameless, no personality or characteristic person :o
I don't know exactly what I should put for some basic info but here it goes:

Name: Victoria Jensen but I rather people call me Tori

Birth date: March 3, 1993
Where I live: Arizona, USA
Favorite place I've been to: Fort Bragg, CA

this was going to be my senior picture, oh well.

Single or Taken: Taken, engaged to be exact.

Best friend: Sarah Shinn (Go check out her youtube channel show is an amazing singer!)

this was from a few years ago

This was my first best friend. 

This is one of my circle of friends. (Left to right) Leesa, Me, Nicole and Sarah. 

So...I don't know what else to tell about myself. I'm a pretty closed off person. So I will put some pictures of years past! 

This is the first photo of Skyler and I. We weren't together at this point and he was too embarrassed to be tagged.

Health, fitness and eating right.

(Image via truprep.com)

Am I the only one who struggles with being consistent with being healthy and exercising? I don't know how many times I've tried to lose weight and go to the gym or do weights and eventually fall off track.
I have an "emotional eating" issue. If something bad happens or if something is stressful I tend to eat, and not healthily. I tend to eat comfort food, such as, breads and sugar. It's something that I apparently learned from other people, I don't know. For most of my childhood and teenage years I was told I was fat, needed to loose weight, etc. Or told very indirect comments: Everyone could stand to loose 10 pounds. But normally I wouldn't let those comments get to me...

(Trigger warning for anyone with eating disorder)

My junior year of high school I was told by people (I won't disclose any names) that I was fat or that my eating habits could lead me to being obese. Day after day I was told this. I played softball in high school and we practiced 3 hours a day Monday-Friday. Like normal, I didn't think anything of it. Then I started dating a guy who was skinnier than me. No, I didn't get any disorder from this person. I do not by any means blame this person for anything. I do have someone to blame, myself. My "disorder" started roughly a good month before we started dating. But in March of my Junior year I couldn't take the criticism anymore. Early that year I had two full fledged break downs (the kind where it was like an out of body experience? The first time I laid on my bedroom floor for 3 years and couldn't move and the second one I packed up all my stuff and destroyed my own things) But why that happened is something completely for another time...
But I started limiting how much I was eating. I started reading books that triggered me. It was so self destructive. I was doing softball 3 hours a day and eating only 500 calories. You need 1200 at a minimum for my height (5'8'') to function, if you're doing sports actively you need 2000. So 500 is horrible and I could have done some extensive damaged to my body. I completely lost myself at that point.

It's been 4 years to this month that I stopped hurting myself and decided to try and eat balanced and exercise and I have lost more weight and felt more confident than I ever had my Junior year. Currently I am 5'8'' and 164 pounds, my goal is 130. I am happy with what I am doing now and wish I could helps those who are where I was my Junior year. I'm going to tell you this:
Limiting your intake or forcing yourself to rid your body of nutrients is not the way to go.
Eat healthy and go out for a walk or bike ride and you'll feel amazing and confident!
Everyone is beautiful no matter what size. As long as you are taking care of you! Don't loose weight because someone said something or because this person weighs this much or because the media tells you what's "acceptable". Do it for you.
I plan on making post about my rises and falls with my health journey and I would love to know what you guys do i.e meals, fitness tips, fun idea's, etc!

International Day of Peace

(Image via google)

This post is a personal/political view.


Perhaps this is one of the most common wished for things. Young kid, adults, elderly, etc. wish for this at some point in life. This thing is world peace. Ever since I was a child I had wished for peace, hearing stories on the news about war and bombings and blood shed has made me shiver with disgust. Tomorrow, September 21,2013 it will be observed. Quick fact: it was first celebrated in 1982. It is really shocking how there can be people who are willing to take other people's lives and hurt each other. World peace won't be achieved through aggressive force, it can only be achieved through patience and verbal outreach. There are many oranizations and companies that are making/signing petitions. Those of you who are Lushies, the company itself is a huge supporter. Peace One Day is doing an outreach and want to make the biggest movement in history

Peace One Day Thunderclap

That link will send you to the Thunderclap website where you can spread the word!
So for anyone who is or have ever thought about world peace give this group a look and take the time to spread the word. The more people come together the quicker we can see a better world. And it may not be in our life time but another way to achieve it is by not being selfish. So maybe your grandkids or great grandkids may see it but we were the ones to help the world move in the right direction. I hope you decide to take a stand.

I hope you have a wonderful International World Peace day!

How I take care of my hair

There are many ways people take care of their hair. There is no perfect way to do it and there's no wrong...no there are wrong ways to take care of your haha. I dyed my hair 5 times in 6 months and took horrible care of it. It stopped growing after a certain length due to being damaged and dead. So about a month ago (give or take a week) I chopped inches off my hair to give it a fresh start. Upon cutting it I decided to make a conscious effort to take proper care of my hair, and here's what I do:

I only wash my hair 2 times a week. This does not mean I don't shower everyday. I don't have poor hygiene. But I typically wash my hair Mondays and Thursdays and on Mondays I shampoo and condition with Joico. After that I use macadamia natural oil deep repair masque and run that through my hair paying close attention to my roots and let that sit in my hair for 50-60 minutes. I only use the deep repair masque once a week (you can use it up to two times a week) but once works well for my hair. While I'm waiting I'm not just hanging out in the shower for an hour letting water run. I get out wrap it up, I use a plastic grocery bag. That's college kid budget for you. But honestly, you don't need a $20-$100 hair holder thing. Use what you already hair and it helps the environment. I usually watch tv or YouTube videos during this time or even do chores. Just don't go out in direct sunlight. It doesn't specify that on the bottle you shouldn't go outside but the masque is intense and so is the sun and could potentially hurt your hair further. Then I wash it out. I part my hair and let it air dry most days. Once it is mainly dry I use the macadamia oil on my ends. If you are going to use a heat tool run the oil through out all of your hair. Dot use too much it'll look oily and gross. A good amount is a dime size. Then style as pleased. The second time I wash my hair is on Thursday nights. I just shampoo and condition, dry my hair, run macadamia oil in the ends and typically put my hair in braids. So what do I do when my hair is getting oily on days I don't wash my hair? Dry shampoo. Get to know it, it'll be your best friend. I use Batiste because they are budget friendly and cruelty free. I know there are people who like the product and people who don't. I personally do. But it's all trial and error with hair products. Find what works with your hair don't buy something and pretend you like because someone said they liked it. Anyways, I spray this in my roots, give it time to sit (about a minute) and brush your hair. Use as much as you desire, again it's all trial and error. Your hair will not only be non greasy but the volume will be insane! Also, I spray in part conditioner part water into my hair for a little extra softness sometimes. I hope this post helped and maybe will lead anyone with questions about hair care in a good direction! :)

Macadamia Natural Oil review

Hello! I wanted to start this post off with a big ol' sorry! For many reasons. First, I've been gone for a few days, today's post is short, no pictures or links. My computer decided it was going to over heat and kill the video card. Sad times.The video card is a major piece to make the laptop run effectively and just run in general. So I'm using Skyler's (my fiance) mom's computer and this poor thing has seen better days. So I can't right click or highlight anything...so I'm sorry if my post become very boring and horrible. Please bare with me :) I'm hoping to be up and running with a fixed computer soon!


I've had Macadamia products for quite some time now. I absolutely adore their products! I have the Deep Repair Masque and Healing Oil Treatment and both have worked wonders on my hair. I only use the deep repair masque once a week (it says you can use it twice a week but one time works well for me) I leave it in my hair for about 50-60 minutes to really let it get down to the roots. After that I wash it out and dry my hair and this treatment leaves my hair so soft and healthy looking! Once my hair is mostly dry I run the healing oil treatment through my hair (don't use too much in one area it will make your hair look greasy) it's a great heat protectant for anyone who is looking for a natural one that isn't full of chemicals, and could potentially create product build up in your hair. Most days I just run it through and don't use any heat, it just really helps your hair stay healthy. Both I have made these two last for close to 6 months, then again I don't like over loading my hair with products. Macadamia Natural Oil is cruelty free (how awesome!). Honestly it's definitely a product that is worth trying. I have heard that there are people who are not fond of the smell, but I actually really like it. So if you are curious about the product go check it out! I got mine at Ulta. If you have tried these products leave a comment down below and tell me what you think.

Lush Ickle Baby Bot review

(Image via Lush Cosmetics)

Hello everyone! So I feel as though I'm a bit late on the band wagon for Lush reviews. I've been a Lushie for quite sometime now, thanks to Youtuber Zoella. I don't know how I ever over looked this place but I'm very happy that I have found it and purchased from them. What I really love about Lush is that they are cruelty free and vegetarian/vegan friendly. They are a good company all around. I haven't tried every little thing there, I've tried a few bath bombs, a few bubbles and one face mask. But I love baby bot. Isn't he just adorable? I love the color of blue as well. I've only used half of it because I like to split all of my bath bombs in two to enjoy them longer. Baby bot is their cheapest bath bomb and it is vegan friendly. It smells very fresh. That's the best way to describe it for me. It has a very fresh, spring smell and it left my bathroom smelling good for awhile after. It turns the water blue (not as blue as Big Blue.) It is a great bath bomb for those on a tight budget but want to try out Lush :) 

Where are the holidays?

Hey everyone! Is it me or do the months (August and September) drag by because of the holiday seasons that follow suit? Well I love the holidays. There was a time that I dreaded them (it seems as if many people have had that phase) but I came to the realization that no matter who I am celebrating with or where it doesn't matter. As long as you just enjoy. I love the people, the weather, the food, the lights, etc. This holiday season my plan is make more DIY gifts instead of retail ones, though I will buy retail things here and there. I also want to make DIY decorations. So when it gets closer, more in October/November I will start making posts on my progress with: Project Gifts. I think I'm witty. But I'll also post steps so you can also try.

Tarte eyeliner look

(My eye prior to applying eyeliner)

(My eye with Tarte eyeliner)

(Finished eyeliner with mascara and some eyeshadow)

So I know people have asked what the Tarte eyeliner looks when it's applied. So I decided to take some pictures! One, my camera isn't new and super advanced. It's a basic point and shoot and 3 years old so the pictures aren't amazing quality. Two, I'm no professional at applying eyeliner, it's tricky. And I don't like winged eyeliner on myself (I do like how it looks on other people). Also, my eyeliner is running out sadly so it was a fight to get it to go on both of my eyes so that's also why it isn't the best application ever. But as you can see it gives a very fine line and it is a great eyeliner for people who like to do winged eyeliner! 

P.S: I don't do my water line cause the point was to show the eyeliner on my upper lid.

E.L.F cosmetics tinted moisturizer review

(E.L.F cosmetics tinted moisturizer SPF 20)

Hey ladies! Today I wanted to do a review on E.L.F cosmetics tinted moisturizer. I picked this up at Target for $3 and I had never tried E.L.F before and for $3 it was worth trying. I got one with SPF because it's always good to use SPF everyday to protect your skin. The color I got is Nude. For it's price it's a really good product! It really evens out my skin tone and leaves my skin feeling soft (probably due to the aloe, cucumber and vitamins in it) At first I thought it made my skin "orangy" but after getting used to a new product I realized it didn't. It gives me a very dewy and healthy complexion which I love! Here in Arizona it seems like you sweat all day everyday so when I wear only the tinted moisturizer it doesn't look very good...but that's because of the climate not the product. Also at the end of the day it comes off very easily. I give this product a thumbs up and recommend to everyone to go try. 

Beauty on a budget

Are you ever having a month (or life) that money has been tight? Many people have been in this situation. In this post I want to talk about where to find make up on a budget! These are some of my favorite make up companies that a budget friendly:

Companies:

E.L.F cosmetics

Wet 'n' Wild

NYX

Physicians Formula

If you guys have any favorite budget friendly make up brands leave a comment! :) 

Some of my beauty inspiration

Some of my inspirations are celebrities/models and youtubers: 

(Images via google)

Celebrities:

Emma Watson

Models:

Candice Swanepoel

Karlie Kloss

Youtubers:

Zoe (Zoella)

Allison (Amarixe)

Fleur (Fleurdeforce)

Why I started a blog

I didn't start up this blog on a spur of the moment idea. It took me months of pondering if whether or not I wanted to do this. I was worried that I would run out of idea's or not even come up with any. I worried that it would be just another phase of something I wanted to do and it would fade away. But in the past few days of actually sitting down, making ideas, updating my blog, designing, it hit me, I know exactly why I made this blog. I made this blog with hopes of being there for girls who may not have female figure in their life to look up to. Perhaps they didn't have someone to teach them things about make up, skin care or hair care. When I was 7 my mom had passed away and it was just my dad and I for a very long time and I didn't have anyone to teach me about this girlier stuff and I had always wished there was someone to teach me. I was too afraid to ask anyone for help with fear of them judging me so I went through many make up fazes. I went through no make up, too much make up, wrong shade of make up and everything in between. I want my blog to be there for girls who need someone to turn to for advice and idea's or maybe just a place to be comfortable. I hope anyone out there feels that they can come to this blog and enjoy and ask questions. I will answer any and all and will help to the best of my knowledge.

Mini beauty haul

Yesterday I went to Target and Trader Joe's. I didn't really have an intent on getting 3 out of 4 of these things. I only was going out to get tinted moisturizer and cheese from Trader Joe's. As I was in Target I stopped by the E.L.F cosmetics section and why haven't I looked at them before?! They are so resonibly priced and their stuff has a "quality" look. So I picked up what I went there to get, the tinted moisturizer. It is in biege and it has SPF 20 in it. Also, E.L.F is cruelty free, stamp of approval for you guys! I noticed that they had a lot of "new" products so I looked at everything. I saw they had a concealer stick and decided to pick that up and try it out. The concelear stick is in apricot biege and it actually has a sweet smell to it, which I didn't know. But I don't mind. When I was standing in the check out line I saw eos lip balm. I had heard many reviews on eos (all good reviews). Normally I'm a carmex girl that's really all I ever used in the way of lip balm but I decided to try eos (partly because I didn't know where carmex was at) the one I got is called "Summer Fruit" and OH MY GOD. This stuff smells so good it is also very moisturizing. While at Trader Joe's I was going up and down the ailes just to look and I stopped in their home, body care section and it hit me, I was completely out of moisturizer. So I looked at what they had. Many of their body care products are pricey because they only sell products that are good and don't have chemicals or artificial things also everything is cruelty free! What I got was the Enrich moisturizing face lotion with SPF 15. Here in Arizona you need to wear a lot of SPF products. So this is my mini haul! I hope you guys enjoyed :) 

Starting youtube?

Hey guys! I'm starting up my youtube channel again! >< I've had it since...omg 7th grade, so...9 years? But hey now or never right? So my youtube channel is here: fallintobeauty

So if you want to check it please do! Leave comments, say hi, I'm a newb at youtube, make fun of me (please don't :P)

I hope to see you guys there!

Love

Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. 

- Oscar Wilde

I know many people may believe that Skyler and I are too young to be thinking of getting married. I don't tell them they are wrong. But I also never tell them they are right. Because, no one, even myself, know if we are too young. Anyone should get married at whatever age. I think it's ridiculous that there's a stigma to when someone should get married.  I know that I love him, and that ever since the first day I met him I knew he was something special to me. It was something that just hit me. I always thought that people were exaggerating when they said you would know when "the one" comes into your life. But it's true, you just know. I am one of those people where I was so impervious to love and anything that could potentially make me vulnerable  I had been hurt, not by boyfriends or ex lovers, but by people who I thought would never hurt me. It's something I'm not going to explain further but just know that I was cold hearted and for years basically emotionless. I hated crying (and still do) but when I met Skyler, something about him made me want to talk to him about things I have kept secret from everyone and to be honest, not just with him but also with myself.
If you are looking for "the one" you may never come across the actual right person for you. You have to let fate take it's course. If you do what you love, and let life go on it's own you will come across that person. Also don't be afraid to date! Dating doesn't mean sealing the deal. It means getting to know someone, maybe they will become your best friend and that person you consider family. Maybe they are the one. But don't be hard on yourself if it hasn't happened yet, because it will.